Wednesday, October 30, 2013

What's Next?

Now that MDI is over, I've been doing some thinking as to what I want to work toward. Having a goal keeps me motivated. I've been resting and recovering for the last nine days and plan on hitting the streets for my first run post-marathon on Thursday. I felt great four days after with no muscle soreness or ache in my hip and even considered running a 5K in my town this past Sunday, but really wanted to fully recover. 

So what am I going to do next? 

I would like to break some time goals in shorter distances - sub-23 in the 5K, sub-50 in the 10K, and sub-1:50 in a half marathon. I'm pretty close in all with current PRs of 23:47, 50:11, and 1:52:03. Totally respectable yet reachable goals, right? But am I dreaming big enough?

My high school running buddy kicked some serious butt this summer and accomplished her goal of a sub-4 hour marathon.

Way to go, Mo!

When we ran together (many moons ago) I was so competitive that I would push my hardest to be out in front. My drive to be the best was what drove me to an individual state championship win and placing in three other events in track and field. This is not saying that I wasn't proud of the accomplishments of my teammates and my friends, I was always out there cheering them on and celebrated their successes and still do. I am beyond proud of Maureen and her awesome marathon accomplishment. However, there is a part of me (the old, uber-competitive self) that hates - okay, hate is a strong word - dislikes the fact that I lost the drive to be the best I can be...that she beat me to this milestone. I'll give you this one for now, Maureen! You earned it, you rock and I love you!

Now that I have children, they are my number one priority and consume much of my thoughts. These days, I sometimes feel guilty going for a run instead of spending time with them. Often times I might skip a training run or cut it short because my running is taking time away from them. Finding that balance is difficult. But I do want to set a good example. I want to teach them if I set a goal, I will work my hardest to accomplish that goal. It was Zeke that came up with my mantra for MDI, "Don't give up, just keep trying." When I told him that I used it to get me to the finish he was so proud and said that he was my hero. Yes you are, buddy. 

In the final, uncomfortable miles of MDI, I had sworn off all marathons and was going to follow Jen's plan of waiting a couple of years. But then afterward, I seemed to forget all the discomfort and this conversation happened the next day:


I still don't know. Part of me wants to keep building on my training from this summer. I have even been as crazy as thinking of becoming a Marathon Maniac in May. There is the Maine Coast Marathon on Mother's Day and then the Sugarloaf Marathon is the week after. Pretty insane for someone who claimed to not do another just over a week ago. What I do know is that I still have a "dream big" goal of making it to Boston. I just don't know if it is possible that it will happen in this decade or the next (or the one after that).

So should I work on my speed while I'm still under 40 and focus on PRs in shorter distances that are easier to train for with a busy mom schedule or go all in for my "dream big" running goal? Can I do both?

8 comments:

  1. I hear ya! I just did a 2 hr 1/2 in San Francisco. I've done a 1:48 half and I still have dreams of a 1:45 or lower. I'm thinking of attempting it in June, but trying to think of the best ways to lay off the pounding of running for a few months while keeping cardio strong. ?!

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    1. I wish I could swim or I would go to the YMCA over the winter, but running it is.

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  2. I would do whatever works in your life at this moment. This is your life and your 'race' so do whatever works and makes you happy. I find myself comparing myself to others and it's so hard not to compare yourself to everyone else (especially when I follow so many fantastic runners/triathletes and their blogs!), but this 'race' is mine alone, so I do what is right for me.

    There is no expiration date to running and achieving!

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    1. I love that there is no expiration date! And you're right, you have to do what is best for you!

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  3. Well, you know what I'll say. I think you should do another marathon!! But only if you really want to do one, and it seems like you do :)

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  4. Awwww. Love you Carrie. You are, and always will be, my running idol. 7 times I have said no more marathons but this Mainiacs thing sounds intriguing! I also want to work on my speed. Sub 23 5K sounds lofty for me, but I like it. We will run again together soon. I need to come to Maine soon! Love ya girl! You're amazing!

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  5. Carrie - you are amazing. You can accomplish so many great things.

    Thanks a lot for putting our private texts online! ;) Just kidding.

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  6. You rock and you can do anything you put your mind to, you know that though! I can't wait to read about your back to back marathons - I have a feeling you've already decided to go for it! Good luck on going for your PRs though, you can totally do it!!

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